Thursday, November 13, 2008

Bad Day

It's official. I'm a car killer. A couple weeks ago my car engine started seizing after I drove home from church and hit a couple of huge puddles. (admittedly, I didn't really try to avoid them... they were fun.) Then this morning I took my husband's car to drop my son off at school and when I came back out to the parking lot the car wouldn't start. So, my husband had to borrow the neighbor's silver Volvo to pick me up. (I kid you not, a silver Volvo.)

It didn't take long before the depressing reality of the state of my life hit me, that at that very moment I had no education, no job, no money, and now no cars - at the age of 35. I was immediately sucked into an awaiting black hole of downward spiraling "I'm a complete loser-ness". The tears started to flow and I was horizontally magnetized to the couch for the rest of the day.

It's been a while since I've let those "minor" issues get to me and being the normally more pro-active person, decided I would just allow myself this one day. Just one day to feel crappy about my reality and then back to work! Not work work because I don't have a job, but at least I have house work. So around 4:30pm I peeled myself off the couch and into the kitchen to start dinner, did a few loads of laundry, vacuumed and straightened up the messy areas. And I feel 100% better! Having a truly bad day once in a while really gives me an appreciation for the many many many good days. I think it's okay to allow yourself a little "wo is me" time once in a while, like once or twice a year. After it builds up it's gotta get out. But get it out then get moving again and do the best you can with what you have.


Kathy Habel said...

Glad your feeling better!

BakeliteBebe said...

You are so much better than me because I would have not even cooked dinner or vacuumed. LOL.
I totally know how you feel. Not your specific situation, but the woe is me feeling and how overwhelming everything can get. When those types of days come along, just make sure when you think of all the bad things, think of all of the great things too! You have a family, awesome friends, an amazing website, you correspond with know, LOL, the really important things! :)

I am glad you are feeling better. :)

Unknown said...

Was this the day I called you looking for an address? *Way to ruin somebody's perfectly planned bad day Andie!* :-P

Glad you are feeling better! Thanks again for your research-still waiting to hear back if the package was received. ;)